(From scott and molly's videos)
I think 2006-2007 was the best time I've ever spent time alone daydreaming about things and posting things online. Those saturday and sunday afternoons I would just sit in the computer room alone watching outside and sun bathing by the window, listening to helen's songs, watching molly's videos over and over again, getting some new ideas and being inspired. That was when youtube was really available. I miss it. It was when I was 13 / 14 years old and I think that's when everything started, really, the "teenage essence". I'm not quite sure what I'm writing about here right now but I can just feel it. Those unanswered questions and the ideas and the inspirations I posted on my old old old blog, they were dissed from my classmates that were mad and cyber-bullying me for no fucking reason. I'm not quite sure, but I think that elevated me to stop trusting people that easily. Things were hard that time, and the person I needed the most that time didn't comfort me at all and pretended to not see anything. It's sort of the same as right now except the only thing we really communicate through is technology and that's just not... what i really prefer. So thank you molly and paperplain for making me feel safe when I was lonely. And thank you, my weird mind, for still having some space for some new ideas.
